tinanong ko sya "Bakit, aong meorn kay maam paz", when she replied na "She drowned", bigla akong natulala sa harap ng phone ko, i didn't know how to react, a part of myself kept pushing the thought that Mymy is just joking; that such a thing could neven happen. but right then and there, the heavy feeling just kept becoming worse, there was a part of me saying that it is true pero Maam Paz was completely healthy and good noon lang Friday, nag-smile pa nga kami sa isa't isa, peru noong nag-si-sink in na sya, sabi ko sa sarili ko, wala na tayong magagawa kundi tagapin that it was her time.
People might be thinking, na hindi ko naman naging teacher si maam paz, totoo nga pero we came from the same elementary school, Bago Bantay Elem Sch, and that fact made her a big part of my Pisay life.
I still remembered the first time we got a formal kwentuhan session, una, nagtanungan kami about our experiences with Maam Nombre (grd 6 adviser), then she asked me to tell her how my second year life was. So yun, kinwento ko yung mga ewan stuff about Sir Guce, mga kawirdohan nya and peculiar things he do, tapos mga enjoyable / ewan-ewan na pinaggagagawa nya, tulag ng pagpapatayo sa silya kung mali sa recitation or yung "are there any gay cells" ni Micah and other enjoyable at experiences na sa pisay lang nangyari. during that time, she was laughing her heart out, and nahihiya ako dahil parang nilahad ko na yung buong second year life ko sa kanya pero was very proud and happy dahil napa-saya ko sya, yung tawa nya punong-puno ng honesty at tipo bang itinawa na nya lahat ng pwede nyang itawa. Often times nakakapag hi/hello kami sa corridors or very short chats like how are you, or ok ka lang ba or how was today, which was a big treat to me dahil wala namang kaming malaking connection with each other pero parang malaking parte kami ng buhay ng isa't isa.
Ngayon sa 'wala' na si Maam Shella Paz, one thing nga siguro na dapat nating matandaan is that maam paz was never ours, she was GOD's and GOD's alone, pinahiram lang naman sya ni LORD and that kung tutuusin, swerte lang natin dahil sa atin sya pinahiram. And now na binawi na sya, di nga dapat tayo magalit or malungkot dahil she is now in far better place compared dito sa mundong ginagalawan natin.
Some people say nothign about it pero kung titingnan ang huling post ni Maam Shelz sa Facebook "
dead-tired but singing and smiling to the tune of Glass of Water. Chris Martin!!! ♥
"tapos ang comment
"Oh, sana naman nakapagpahinga ka na. >_<"
di ko alam kung bakit pero it really sent chills sa akin........nakakapangilabot. feeling ko nga noon, did she knew something was coming?
Alam nyo, sabi sa Bible at sa Purpose Driven Life, there is no untimely death, though a lot of us might say na ang bata pa naman ni maam, it was really just her time, yun nga lang, she was there when her time came and so that was her way of leaving us.
But what we all know is that kahit anong mangyari, her memories will be with us as long as we live.
You'll always be a part of our lives, Maam Paz!!
